March 28, 2005
Hi, I am 39 divorced mom of a 17 years old daughter. Last October 2004, I went to my GYN for my check up. He could see the tumor when he inserted the speculum. He immediately sent me to a GYN oncologist.
Which by the way is the best doctor I have ever had. He doesn^t hide anything from me. He diagnosed me with stage 2b cervical cancer. The worst news I could have ever gotten. When my daughter had questions she made a list of questions and he took the time to answer each and every one. He spoke to her after he did the scope on me. I started chemo on October 25th. 4 weeks of that every day. I would go into the hospital on Mondays and have chemo for 5 days then be off of it for 7days. While doing this I was also doing 28 days of external radiation. It left me weak, tired and pissed off. I was so angry that this happened to me. I didn^t deserve this and neither did my family. I was so scared I was going to die and leave my daughter alone. I almost did. the chemo made my blood count go down to almost nothing. I had about 10 blood transfusions and about 8 platlett transfusions. Not to mention all of the nupagen and procrit shots (what a pain they were). After the external radiation I also had 5 internal radiation
treatments. My hair fell out (all of it, no eyebrows or lashes). If it were not for the help of all of my family, my coworkers (before I started treatment they took up a collection and bought me a wig), all of the nursing staff a Lakeside and Joe Arrington Cancer Center, and both of my wonderful doctors I don^t think I would have made it through all of this. I finished treatment Jan 05 and went back to work after 4 months of being off on Feb 21. My doctors have both said I am cancer free. But with every visit the fear comes back. But does it ever really go away. I am finally starting to feel like myself again. I still have to be careful of what I eat and can^t on some days get to far from the bathroom but for the most part I am GREAT!!!! I know that this is the most horrible thing for any of us to go through but I came out a stronger person. Just keep praying. It really helps. And don^t be afraid to be angry, mad, pissed off. YOU HAVE THAT RIGHT!!! My prayers are with all of US.