June 27, 2005
Hi. Today I received another phone call. When I heard my Dr.^s voice, I said, "Oh No." He said don^t worry, it is not that bad, then he proceeded to tell me that the cryo I had 3 months ago didn^t work and that I still had signs of cancer on my cervix. Roll back ten years ago and I had my first abnormal pap. That was followed by laser surgery with the reassurance that I would be fine. 3 years ago I was preganant with my middle child, abnormal pap, biopsy, clear pap. It seemed to magically go away. 2 years ago I was pregnant with my 3rd child, abnormal pap, biopsy, normal pap-again magically disappeared. Feb 2005, abnormal pap, March 2005 - cryo this time. June 2005- another abnormal pap- 3 months after the cryo. This time he is suggesting another cone or preferably a hysterectomy. This time he is using the Cancer word instead of "precancer" which has always been used in the past. I am lucky, I have 3 beautiful children but I am scared to have a hysterectomy at 32 years old. I have 2 weeks to think about it.