I am new to this site, but found great comfort knowing that I am not alone in this. I was diagnosed with High grade squamous cell CIN2, CIN3 and CIS back in Oct, 2008. I have been going through the pap testing every 6 months and since then only one has come back normal. I have gone had 2 LEEP procedures and one showed severe dysplasia and the second showed mild dysplasia with CIN 2. After my second LEEP the first came back normal, and just went in for the second one. Called the nurse today to see if the results have come back. The nurse called me and was told that it came back abnormal and was going to talk to the doctor regarding the results, to see what she wants to do. I am a single mother of a beautiful 13 almost 14 yr old daughter. There is nothing in this world that scares me more then to hear the words that I may possibly hear one day. What also scares me is reading what it means with ASCUS, that it may not be significant or it also could mean that there could be an underlining problem. I may have to go in for more testing and I get scared to death knowing that I am only 33 years old and have been going through this for so long. I asked the doc once if it came back abnormal if she could just take it out, but because of my age they feel it might be to invasive. There are times I want to scream and cry because of all emotions running through me. I feel that the ones around me don^t understand the feelings that are inside, how alone and empty you feel inside.