My name is Cyndie. I am 41 years old, married to a wonderful husband and the love of my life. I have 2 daughters, a 22 year old and a 20 year old and a 2 year old granddaughter that my husband and I raise full time. I will admit that I was one of those who went years without any paps and ignored the warnings from my mother and friends. Cancer? It can^t touch me, NO WAY. Well, I was wrong. In August 2009, I was diagnosed with late stage III ( stage 3b). I was past surgical stage and treatments were the only options out there. I was scared beyond belief and to make matters worse (although at the time, I understand why it was done), I was marked for radiation, had a port placed and was starting radiation and chemo within 6 days. It all went so fast that it really didn^t give me a chance to process everything that was going on.
I had almost 6 weeks of daily radiation with weekly chemo treatments. I then had 2 internal radiation hospital stays. After that, I then went on 3 week double dosed chemo treatments. I finished my treatments in April of 2010, because the CTs were no longer showing any cancer. YAY!!
I^ve spent the last 1 1/2 years trying to get my life back together. I suffer from depression, anxiety and sometimes really don^t know where to go from here. The only thing that keeps me going is my beautiful granddaughter, my girls and my husband. They have kept me hanging on, even when I felt like giving up. My treatments just really have caused a lot of issues that my husband and I never thought we would have to deal with at our age. Some of the issues are very personal and stem from damage that the cancer and my aggressive treatments caused. We are working through them, but it^s tough. There is no support group in my area where I can speak about such personal things. The nearest one is in Houston and I am up in the Dallas area.
In March of this year, my 3 month CT scan came back and it showed that my lymph nodes (higher up in the abdomen & towards my back) were enlarged and that the cancer may have returned. It was like being punched in the stomach. Recent tests are still showing no progress, so hopefully it^s nothing more than the lymph nodes being reactive to stress instead of that the cancer has spread. My doctor is watching it closely, because she doesn^t want to open me up for biopsies and instead will put me back on chemo is there is any further change.
I am very vocal with friends and family about having their regular exams and to not be like me and go so long thinking "it will not happen to me".
Thank you for giving me a place to share a little of my story.
I will NOT give up and I will NOT let this cancer beat me!!!