I have a three month old baby girl. When I was 6 months pregnant I started seeing a high risk OGBYN/Cervical Pathologist during my 6th month of pregnancy because I have severe rheumatoid arthritis. My previous doctor told me that my pap smear came back abnormal/lsil but that it was nothing to worry about and that I would just need another after IU delivered. However, when I started seeing my high risk doctor she ordered a colposcopy due to the fact that my pap smear said that there were no healthy cells present and apparently my first doctor wrote it off to be a bad smear. Right after my colposcopy my high risk doctor said that I was lucky that I was seeing her and that if I were to see a different doctor they would have diagnosed me with invasive cervical cancer as there were lesions completely covering my cervix and that they were thick. She said that if I had been under 20 weeks pregnant (I was 24) she would have recommended a medical abortion. She said she didn^t want to do a biopsy yet as I was already high risk for preterm labor and that we would keep a close eye on it because sometimes the dialation process would shed some of those cells. Well, it didn^t and after my delivery when I had my pap it came back as hsil and once again no healthy cells present. So then she scheduled a colposcopy and did a brush smear which said the same thing and also said that the lesions were thick and she said my cervix was hard. So I just had the leep procedure and a biopsy done where she removed 6 large lesions almost half an inch long. She even showed them to me. I am waiting for the results now but am terrified as I have been bleeding for 12 weeks straight and am so anemic I can barely get out of bed. I also have my baby girl, an 8 year old boy and an 11 year old boy and am going through a divorce so as you can imagine the stress is killing me. Any suggestions, or has anyone else been through this.I know I shouldn^t anticipate the worst by my doctor is also a cervical pathologist and she makes it sound like its not very good. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!