Hello... well today is my 4 year anniversary of my surgery to remove the cancer in my body! I was diagnosed with 1b1 cervical cancer in March of 2007 and had a trachelectomy May 4, 2007 at Sloan Memorial in NYC with a WONDERFUL oncologist, Dr. Nadeem Abu-Rustum. I moved from CA to CT about a year earlier and I have to say that God must have had a plan to move me out east to be near such a remarkable facility. That^s not to say that CA or other states don^t have great hospitals/doctors, but at the time Sloan and Dr Abu-Rustum were among only a couple of places where a trachelectomy could be performed, and at the age of 34 I was NOT ready to have someone tell me I needed a hysterectomy and could never have kids! In fact, I was getting all my medical records together the other day and found my notes from my first meeting with my doctor and at that time I asked him how many trachelectomies he had performed...... His answer....54. Hard to imagine. Anyway, having come 4 years and realizing that my strength has helped me get through the diagnosis, treatment, and everything else that came afterward! The days I am feeling less than strong, I just remember that. My advice to everyone is to be kind to yourself, ask for help, and those friends who stick by you, are your true friends... never let them go. These past 4 years have been tough at times, and even though this anniversary is one to celebrate, I still have those thoughts of fear, anxiety, etc. About a week before I go see my oncologist, it never fails, I seem to relive the whole thing over and over. It does wain over time, but it^s still there. I have 1 more year until I can officially claim that I am a survivor, but for the next 365 days I am going to take each day as a victory and try to appreciate what I have. There was a song that came out just when I was initially going through everything and a few lines from that song always stick with me, and I hope with you all as well...... \"And I loved deeper, and I spoke sweeter and I gave forgiveness I^d been denying\"...... treat each day as a blessing, and God^s strength to you all!