I am also a cervical cancer survivor. I passed my 5-year mark on October 18, 2010. I was diagnosed when I was 31. I had just gotten out of a 10-year relationship, was moving on with my life. See, he had only stayed with me because I "kept coming back" in his words. Well I was dumb enough to think that he still loved me and cared for me when none of it was true. He was cheating on me constantly, which I found out later on from people who knew he was doing this. Anyway, it was over for good this time. I didn^t plan on dating anyone but did begin to date a man a few months after the breakup. He was the man of my dreams. Finally - the love of my life was here! Less than a year later, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer. He did stick by me through the hysterectomy, the chemotherapy, the radiation. That was the easy part. Within 2 months, menopause set in. Even though an ovary had been transposed, chances of it being alive still were slim to none at that point. I began to fall apart emotionally since I was now unable to have any children. Me, the person who had a good job, good man, my ducks in a row. I wasn^t like my other friends who had kids when they were teenagers, lived off the government and didn^t have a pot to pee in. Why was this happening to me? I just couldn^t understand why, why me? I began drinking heavily, was not always the nicest person to my boyfriend. It wasn^t his fault; I just couldn^t deal with it and couldn^t express what I was feeling. Finally last year after a meltdown, I told him all I was feeling. After that, I think I may have started to heal inside a little bit. I was looking for information on a paper I was doing for a college paper I was doing when I came across this site. I am very thankful to have found it. Thank you for everyone who has shared their stories. I am not alone in this after all, with others going through the same thing I am. Little by little, day by day, we WILL get through this!