July 7, 2005
Hello - My name is Jamie, I am a 26 year old mother of 3 (Jacob 6, Josie 16 months, Jaci 6 months), Yes I am very busy. In July of 2003 I found out I was pregnant with my daughter Josie. I went to Sioux Falls, SD to a high risk OB/GYN, I have a bleeding disorder that prevents quick clotting. I had a routine pap smear done that came back abnormal. I was referred to a reproductive oncologist and was told that I had severe cervical dysplasia. Sp they said that they would keep a close eye on it during the pregnancy and that 9 eeks post partum would perform a LEEP. Well the birth went well and I went in for my Leep, only to be told that I was 8 weeks pregnant, yes they are 10 months and 4 days apart. They could not do the LEEP, I was tempting fate. I had severe complications from the Leep do to my bleeding disorder. I finally stopped bleeding for a couple of days and I had a Marina implant put in for birth control. Should have just made him sleep in a different room. I have been bleeding ever since. Sorry the leep came back ok and with clear margins, Thank you God! I am still bleeding and still have a constant discharge. I went in for a repeat pap two days ago and am scared to dealth about the results, they cannot come back fast enough. I feel very alone and sometimes think that it would just be easier to give up, I know that I^m being selfish, because I don^t ever want to leave my kids! I am getting married in October, I hope
very much that my results are clear and that I don^t get a false negative. I would love to have someone to talk to that understands the frustration and the feeling of being so scared. I hope all of you the best of luck. Please take care. I will pray for you if you pray for me. Hope to talk to someone soon.