Hello to all the lovely ladies out there that have posted their stories that have made me feel a little bit better.
I will be 37 in a couple of weeks. When I was 19 (1990) I had a serious boyfriend who later became my husband. I had an abnormal pap smear that resulted with me having dysplasia. While trying to get an appointment scheduled for the Dr to freeze my cervix, I discover that I am pregnant. So I did not have the procedure. I have a healthy baby boy. No pap smears ever came back abnormal ever again.
Fast forward. I am remarried in 1998. I\^m older and a little wiser. We hold off on having more children to get settled into being a married couple. Year 2002 I have a pap smear come back fine, but I tested positive for HPV. We were getting ready to work on expanding our family. I am just horrified by the news because I had no clue when or with whom I had gotten it from. In any case, that didn\^t matter now. There was no infidelity in our marriage so that was not cause for concern. However, was I going to be able to have more children? My son was 14 at the time.
We are blessed with a baby girl March 2005. Not a problem in the world. I had a miscarriage Feb of 2006, had a D&C and moved forward. Pap smears and pelvic exams are good. Check ups are good.
We are blessed with another baby girl April 2007. Again, no problems. check ups good and so on.
Current time. Dec 2008. Pap comes back abnormal. Well I am HPV positive, so I figure it has something to do with that. Although, I am a little baffled because they had never come back abnormal since I was diagnosed with HPV in the spring of 2002. Being unfamiliar with lab terms and such, I can only tell you that the level was high enough that I had to have a colposcopy immediately following the test results. I\^ve had the same Dr forever. She\^s delivered both of my girls and I trust her completely.
I ask before we start how it all worked. She was going to take a look-see and see how my cervix looked, if needed, she would biopsy, wait until the labs came back. Pending the results, I might have to have the Leep procedure (I think thats what it\^s called.)
She didn\^t find spots of abnormal areas, she found patches of them along with two large cysts that she did not see during the original pelvic/pap exam. She biopsies 4 places. No need to wait for the results, I will need the procedure no matter what. While swabbing my cervix, it was painful and I am not able to say it concerned her, but she did mention to the nurse that \"when she was only swabbing, it was painful.\" Now, I would like to think that it was only because she had just biopsied the area and it was tender.
This all took place this morning. I am trying to think positive thoughts but gosh it is hard. Out of no where this abnormal/high risk pap smear comes back and slaps me in the face. My doctor isn\^t one to jump the gun, or do procedures that aren\^t neccessary, so I think that with all the urgency going on it makes me feel like it\^s going to be bad news.
I will get the results next week. I pray it is good news.
I have had cysts on my ovaries in the past that burst and required emergency surgery due to serious internal bleeding. The first time being the worst because they thought it was a tubal pregnancy and once inside they discovered the real problem. I had to have 2 blood transfusions. The second time, I recognized the symptoms and the pain and was able to act fast. They were in 2002 and 2003.
Not real sure what my point is or if any of what I\^ve said will help anybody or not. I think I really wanted to put this out there to let some of the young girls out there know that although being HPV Positive is not a great thing, don\^t give up on the hopes of having children. I am so happily married (10 years) with 3 children, 2 of which were born after being diagnosed. ; )
I hope everybody has a wonderful holiday season! I will post again when I get the results. ; )