I first found out I had cancerous cell on my cervix while going through a misscarriage. I was 14 weeks along and my heart was broken. I was afraid I wouldnt have another chance to have a second child. My first son was 2 at the time, and I wanted him top have a sibling. I had a d&c and then I had to wait to heal before having my biopsy. The biopsy came back bad and I was scheduled for the LEEP procedure. When the time came I had no choice but to cancel, My two year old had been hospitalized with a severe virus, so the set it up for the next month. The next time I found myself sick, unable to leave the bathroom so I again had to cancel. The third time I was at the hospital when my husband was rushed to the er, he had to have emergency surgery. The fourth time I made it to the hospital and was waiting for the doctor to come and get me. Once he finally came in the room he sat down and gave me a serious face,I thought he was going to tell me I was dying or something, instead he told me I was 6 weeks pregnant. He set me up with an appointment and told me that he would just be watching me closely. Three months into the pregnancy there was no trace of the cancerous cells. They were shocked, it had been really bad when it was there and now it had just vanished. My highrisk pregnancy was diffucult for all of us but in the end we had a healthy, full term, baby.
Two months later the cancer returned. This time I had the LEEP. I was doing well until the past few months. I have been having strange bleeding and pain. I made myself an appointment and I am hoping things are not as bad as they seem.
I know that a hystrectomy can save your life but it is hard to except. I would love to have a daughter, or not, but I want to choice to be mine. I dont know if the choices is easier with age but I am 24, I am not ready for it. I dont know what will happen in the future but I am ready to fight if I have too. I WILL be at my sons\^ graduations, weddings, and I WILL meet my grandchildren.